Nearly every picture I take, I evaluate it and find things that I could have done differently. I’m learning. I’m making mistakes. But I’m enjoying the process and trying and trying and trying again. When I’m behind the lens my whole body relaxes and it’s just me and whatever is in my viewfinder.
And, on a mostly-unrelated note, I was feeling sad about some divorce-related things yesterday. A friend mentioned to me that it was okay to cry. I don’t think he knew that I usually don’t think it’s okay to cry. And so when another friend comforted me last night I let myself acknowledge what I was feeling inside and the tears flowed. I think I’ve only done that once since my marriage ended. It felt awkward and embarrassing to be so emotional. But I did it anyways. And it was okay. I was okay.
Try to find a book called “Crazy Time” on Amazon or similar. It is out of print but if you can find it, it may help you with sorting through your feelings.
You are more than okay, Jana. Love you.
heck, you are spectacular, not just ok!
Sometimes I am just ok. I’m learning that I don’t have to be spectacular all the time. :)
I’ve heard tears help release toxins and relieve pain. I hope you give yourself permission to cry whenever you need to. There’s no way you’ll abuse that privilege. Either way, you’re so much more than okay. Much love.
Crying is human, and we should never feel obliged to hide our humanity. Crying in a safe place with a safe friend is a privilege and can help one find a safe footing on treacherous ground. For someone who does not often think that it is OK to cry, it was brave to tell us. Thanks for sharing.
Not all tears are evil. ~ Gandalf