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trying again
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trying again

written by Jana April 27, 2011

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Nearly every picture I take, I evaluate it and find things that I could have done differently. I’m learning. I’m making mistakes. But I’m enjoying the process and trying and trying and trying again. When I’m behind the lens my whole body relaxes and it’s just me and whatever is in my viewfinder.

And, on a mostly-unrelated note, I was feeling sad about some divorce-related things yesterday. A friend mentioned to me that it was okay to cry. I don’t think he knew that I usually don’t think it’s okay to cry. And so when another friend comforted me last night I let myself acknowledge what I was feeling inside and the tears flowed. I think I’ve only done that once since my marriage ended. It felt awkward and embarrassing to be so emotional. But I did it anyways. And it was okay. I was okay.

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marjorie April 27, 2011 - 1:22 pm

Try to find a book called “Crazy Time” on Amazon or similar. It is out of print but if you can find it, it may help you with sorting through your feelings.

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Chandelle April 27, 2011 - 2:42 pm

You are more than okay, Jana. Love you.

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elaine emmi April 27, 2011 - 3:54 pm

heck, you are spectacular, not just ok!

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Jana April 27, 2011 - 9:16 pm

Sometimes I am just ok. I’m learning that I don’t have to be spectacular all the time. :)

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Melinda April 29, 2011 - 7:51 am

I’ve heard tears help release toxins and relieve pain. I hope you give yourself permission to cry whenever you need to. There’s no way you’ll abuse that privilege. Either way, you’re so much more than okay. Much love.

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Gray April 29, 2011 - 11:44 am

Crying is human, and we should never feel obliged to hide our humanity. Crying in a safe place with a safe friend is a privilege and can help one find a safe footing on treacherous ground. For someone who does not often think that it is OK to cry, it was brave to tell us. Thanks for sharing.

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EBrown April 29, 2011 - 3:44 pm

Not all tears are evil. ~ Gandalf

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Hi there friend, and welcome to my blog. I started writing on the internet two decades ago. Since then I've started and finished a PhD program, left the Mormon church and became a Quaker, got divorced, remarried, found full-time work in academia, took up rock climbing and outrigger canoeing, and traveled across the globe (China! Belgium! Italy! Chicago! Montana! Portland! Gettysburg! and oh-so-many points in-between). This blog is eclectic and random--it has poetry and cooking and books. And cats. And flowers. And the ocean (my ocean). But in that sense it's a good reflection of me and my wide-ranging, far-reaching, magpie curiosity.

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