Category: songs/poetry

  • Show me a garden that’s bursting into life…

    This song by Snow Patrol came on the radio on a morning that I had a long drive across LA last week. Though I’m not typically one to become enchanted with popular songs, the lyrics of this one just hit me, as I realized how they expressed much of my emotional confusion from the past few weeks. In particular, I thought of the ways friends embraced and supported me while I felt so insecure in the days after John left me.  A huge thank you to all of who have taken time out of your lives (the long talks, the letters, the poems, the soaks in hot tubs, the care packages, the strolls through the garden, the hours spent at my side) and who have simply cared about mine.  You are all so beautiful and generous…

    I need your grace
    To remind me
    To find my own…
    Forget what we’re told
    Before we get too old
    Show me a garden that’s bursting into life

  • on breakage…

    Really desperate for ocean poetry today.  Here’s another one from a friend that’s feeding my soul (oh, and fueling my hunger for some salty sea air), while remembering a night not too long ago, spent on the edge of bitumen cliffs, hearing the ocean call my name…

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    Breakage

    I go down to the edge of the sea.
    How everything shines in the morning light.
    The cusp of the whelk,
    the broken cupboard of the clam,
    the opened, blue mussels,
    moon snails, pale pink and barnacle scarred —
    and nothing at all whole or shut, but tattered, split,
    dropped by the gulls onto the gray rocks and all the
    moisture gone.
    It’s like a schoolhouse
    of little words.
    First you figure out what each one means by itself,
    the jingle, the periwinkle, the scallop
    full of moonlight.

    Then you begin, slowly, to read the whole story.

    ~ Mary Oliver ~

  • a toast to a new life

    getting my feet wet, originally uploaded by pilgrimgirl.

    From a kind friend…

    Caminante, son tus huellas el camino y nada mas;
    Caminante, no hay camino, se hace camino al andar.
    Al andar se hace el camino, y al volver la vista atras
    se ve la senda que nunca se ha de volver a pisar.
    Caminante, no hay camino sino estelas en la mar.
    ~Antonio Machado

    Translation:
    Pilgrim, the path is your tracks
    And nothing more.
    Pilgrim, there is no path
    The path is made by walking.
    By walking you make a path
    And turning, you look back
    At a way you will never tread again
    Pilgrim, there is no road
    Only wakes in the sea.

    Just what I needed to hear right now….

  • as far as was needed…

    Cape Cod beach

    With Kit, Age Seven, At the Beach

    We would climb the highest dune,
    from there to gaze and come down:
    the ocean was performing;
    we contributed our climb.

    Waves leapfrogged and came
    straight out of the storm.
    What should our gaze mean?
    Kit waited for me to decide.

    Standing on such a hill,
    what would you tell your child?
    That was an absolute vista.
    Those waves raced far, and cold.

    “How far could you swim, Daddy,
    in such a storm?”
    “As far as was needed,” I said,
    and as I talked, I swam.

    ~William Stafford

  • a bit of poetry

    I encountered “The Raised Fist: A Cyborgian Tale” while attending the virtual HASTAC conference this morning.  Embedded in the video were the words of Allison J. Harrington, speaking at the 1999 Berkeley Ethnic Studies Strike:

    This poem written on my body will not stop.
    You cannot arrest this poem without it growing bolder.
    I wanted to give you a poem, but I offer my body instead.
    Her words made me think about the poems written on my own body.  I have no actual words on my body, but the scars of my life experience, the laughlines around my eyes, the dirt from my garden embedded under my fingernails, and the tanlines from my paddling jersey…these all are poems.  Poems that speak themselves to everyone around me.
    (photo by Jessica)
  • orange

    In the last few days I’ve been smelling blossoms on breezes–magnolia blossoms, mostly, but also just a hint of citrus. It’s a little early yet for orange blossoms, but my anticipation is building, nonetheless.

    So this morning I read a thin book of poetry called The Orangery by Gilbert Sorrentino. Each poem in the volume is about orange or oranges. Just what I needed today. It’s full of delicious ironies about the impossibilities of orange (and it doesn’t rhyme, of course).

    An excerpt from “Variations 1”

    Poetry must not be poured into molds
    the man said, fighting an old battle
    filled with wild alarums.

    No one eats oranges
    in anybody’s poems

    The image above is from a jaunt to Brooklyn in winter where outside an art gallery there was a bare tree hung with oranges. It delighted me–I am a fan of the ridiculous and unexpected.

  • Mary Monday: “Hum”

    faded roses in December

    This seemed an appropriate poem for the 80-degree days that we’ve been having here in Southern California. My rosebushes are putting on so much new growth!

    From “Hum” by Mary Oliver

    it’s love almost too fierce to endure, the bee
    nuzzling like that into the blouse
    of the rose. and the fragrance, and the honey, and of course
    the sun, the purely pure sun, shining, all the while, over
    all of us

  • Mary Monday: "Hum"

    faded roses in December

    This seemed an appropriate poem for the 80-degree days that we’ve been having here in Southern California. My rosebushes are putting on so much new growth!

    From “Hum” by Mary Oliver

    it’s love almost too fierce to endure, the bee
    nuzzling like that into the blouse
    of the rose. and the fragrance, and the honey, and of course
    the sun, the purely pure sun, shining, all the while, over
    all of us

  • a quiet clapper

    a park, in winter
    This morning I am creating space with the poetry of Margaret Hasse.

    Being Still

    She’s a quiet clapper in the bell of the prairie,
    a girl who likes to be alone.
    Today, she’s hiked four miles down
    ravines’ low cool blueness.
    Bending under a barbed wire, she’s in grass fields.
    She’s at the edge of the great plains.
    Wise to the openness, she finds it a familiar place.
    Her clothes swell like wheat bread.

    When she returns to her parents house,
    the foxtails and burrs have come home, too.
    The plants seem intent on living in new ground.
    […]
    The stiller she is, the more everything moves
    in the immense vocabulary of being.

  • Mary Monday: Whom they souse

    [Shhhh…don’t tell anyone that I’m actually posting this one on Tuesday]
    Cape Cod
    My high school days were full of yearnings. Many of these were the typical yearnings of a teen: I wanted to achieve greatness and find my way in this big world. But some of these yearning were different, they were due to feeling trapped inside a body that yearned to move freely. Many of my dreams were about swimming…because water was the only place where I my body wasn’t hampered by gravity and a world made for bipedals.

    I joined my high school swim team so I had a good excuse to be in the water for two hours per day. I also got certified as a lifeguard so I could work as a canoe instructor at summer camps. I swam in our backyard pool often, loving to float on my back and feel the sun on my body.

    So when I fell in love with Whitman’s poetry I particularly loved his “Twenty-eight young men” poem. Of course I knew that it was highly sexually-charged (which also resonated with me on some levels*), but more than that, I knew the feelings of the woman at the window who was watching everyone else frolic and play as she stood by and watched. I knew what it was to spend my time imagining that I was joining in the fun, but was instead merely watching from behind the blinds.

    This poem came to mind earlier this week as I was paddling alone in the Back Bay. I started reciting it in my mind (having committed it to memory long ago). I smiled at the fact that I’m no longer standing by and longing to leap in the water. Having an amphibious prosthetic limb has made me able to move in and out of the water with ease.

    Twenty-eight young men bathe by the shore,
    Twenty-eight young men and all so friendly;
    Twenty-eight years of womanly life and all so lonesome.
    She owns the fine house by the rise of the bank,
    She hides handsome and richly drest aft the blinds of the window.
    Which of the young men does she like the best?
    Ah the homeliest of them is beautiful to her.
    Where are you off to, lady? for I see you,
    You splash in the water there, yet stay stock still in your room.
    Dancing and laughing along the beach came the twenty-ninth bather,
    The rest did not see her, but she saw them and loved them.
    The beards of the young men glisten’d with wet, it ran from their long hair,
    Little streams pass’d all over their bodies.
    An unseen hand also pass’d over their bodies,
    It descended tremblingly from their temples and ribs.
    The young men float on their backs, their white bellies bulge to the sun,
    they do not ask who seizes fast to them,
    They do not know who puffs and declines with pendant and bending arch,
    They do not think whom they souse with spray.

    –Walt Whitman, Song of Myself, sec 11 in Leaves of Grass bk ii (1855)


    *While I was looking for an electronic version of this poem, I happened upon this site, which pairs the poem with Eakins’ painting “The Swimming Hole.” John just happened to look over my shoulder at that very moment and got a good giggle out of my surreptitious viewing of nekkid men.

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  • Mary Monday: venting & poetry

    Yesterday I posted a crowdsourced parody of the “12 Days of Christmas” song entitled “The 12 Woes of the Quarter” to the History Compass blog. It addresses some specific grievances from those of us grad students who’re struggling through the UC financial crisis. You might want to take a look. :)

    Last night I attended an event that showcased various forms of e-literature, including much e-poetry. I was particularly taken by the work of David Jhave Johnston, and encourage you to spend some time perusing the work on his site and watching the piece below…(yes, I know it’s all wonky in the sizing, but hopefully it’ll all work anyways).

    And then, as I walked home all full of poetry (and mango sticky rice–yum!) late last night, I became enchanted by the shadows cast by my own legs as I passed under streetlights. I was wearing a shortish a-line skirt that seemed to complement the asymmetrical shapes of my left and right legs. As the legs stretched out in the shadows, they looked rather like doll-legs. It was so strange to see them and feel as though they were a piece of art that was not connected to me. With my cameraphone I snapped one blurry picture, to share when I was feeling in that moment…

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  • Mary Monday: venting & poetry

    Yesterday I posted a crowdsourced parody of the “12 Days of Christmas” song entitled “The 12 Woes of the Quarter” to the History Compass blog. It addresses some specific grievances from those of us grad students who’re struggling through the UC financial crisis. You might want to take a look. :)

    Last night I attended an event that showcased various forms of e-literature, including much e-poetry. I was particularly taken by the work of David Jhave Johnston, and encourage you to spend some time perusing the work on his site and watching the piece below…(yes, I know it’s all wonky in the sizing, but hopefully it’ll all work anyways).

    And then, as I walked home all full of poetry (and mango sticky rice–yum!) late last night, I became enchanted by the shadows cast by my own legs as I passed under streetlights. I was wearing a shortish a-line skirt that seemed to complement the asymmetrical shapes of my left and right legs. As the legs stretched out in the shadows, they looked rather like doll-legs. It was so strange to see them and feel as though they were a piece of art that was not connected to me. With my cameraphone I snapped one blurry picture, to share when I was feeling in that moment…

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