Author: Jana

  • On being a Digital Human

    This is a ‘classic’ post that seemed worth revisiting for the “Day of DH,” while I’m contemplating my own identity as a cyborg and the price I pay for that luxury.

    Sometimes I make jokes about being a “bionic woman” or a “cyborg.” Having a prosthetic leg with a computer-controlled knee joint lends itself to such comparisons. Truth be told, the first thing I’d reach for if there was a house fire in the middle of the night and we needed to exit quickly, wouldn’t be the family photo albums. I’d reach for my robotic leg. It would make sense, given that the leg cost as much as a luxury car. And, of course, because it’s essential for my mobility.

    I’ve been robotic for about three years. When I first heard that my insurance would pay for a computerized knee joint, I was thrilled to adopt the technology. I knew that it meant more stability, fewer falls, and a more natural gait. My prosthetist duly warned me not to get it wet, to charge the battery every night for at least three hours, and to notify him at the first sign of any malfunction.

    My kids were thrilled with my leg and its robotic possibilities. We wondered what might happen if an evil genius reprogrammed my leg and forced me to rob banks or steal diamonds? We giggled long and hard about that scenario. The first time my battery started running low, I was standing in a grocery checkout line with my son and daughter. We heard the telltale beeps and I felt the vibrating sensation like a cellphone ringer, notifying me that I had 10 minutes to get my leg plugged in or I’d lose power altogether. We raced home and made it just in time. The adventure was more thrilling than a car chase scene in a spy movie.

    Some days, however, I feel guilty about owning a leg that cost more than fifty thousand dollars. I think of my limbless sisters and brothers in other circumstances and I realize that dozens—if not hundreds—of low-tech limbs could be purchased for the price of my computerized leg. And I contemplate the thousands of new amputees returning home from Iraq, and those people throughout the world who live in daily fear of loss of life and limb.

    Last year my leg malfunctioned while I was traveling in Asia, perhaps a result of using a faulty power adapter for charging my leg. Though there was no way to get the computer repaired during my trip, I was able to continue my travels with my knee stiff–walking as if wearing a cast. Despite the impairment, I carried on with typical tourist activities: scaling the Great Wall, strolling through the markets, touring gardens, and do forth. Nearly every place we visited there were beggars, many of them amputees. I knew I needed to avoid giving handouts or I would be besieged by dozens of people asking for the same. So I kept my hands in my pockets and looked into their eyes and felt heartsick and smug. Contemplating the price that bought my mobility. Feeling my own betrayal.

  • Ten Things I’ve Learned from becoming a University Administrator

    In a career trajectory that’s probably peculiar to my skillset as a Digital Humanist, I moved directly from being a graduate student to serving as a university administrator (I’m the Associate Director for the Office of Academic Technology & Digital Media at a private university in southern California).  That transition resulted in a pretty steep learning curve for me, but now that I’m two years into my position at Chapman, I’m reflecting on the lessons learned along the way.

    First, a few methods for increasing my personal efficiency…

    1) Task Management

    Going from working in my home office (i.e. my couch) to an Administration building means that I have to structure my time much more efficiently than before.  I have to get dressed in professional clothes each morning, commute on SoCal freeways in rush hour traffic, and organize all of my appointments around business hours.  That was a bigger transition than I expected, and never having worked full-time before, it was a huge lifestyle change.  To aid with keeping myself in order, I use a few tools for task management, including Hiveminder (on my desktop & laptops) and iMinder on my phone.  On my desk at work I keep a large yellow sticky pad where I prioritize all of my “To Do’s” for the day, and cross each one off with a sharpie marker when I complete them (because that feels so satisfying, and I like looking down at a list of marked-off items each day as I head out the door for home).

    2) Partitioning my work/family life

    I’m a compulsive email answerer–if I see the messages, I tend to want to reply immediately.  So I’ve separated my work email from my personal email so I can ‘turn off’ work during my off hours (except in an emergency).  My personal account is on Gmail and my work is on Exchange, so that makes it pretty easy to keep them separate.  If I have my work email open during the evening, I find that my own writing/research just doesn’t get done (although if there’s a looming deadline or transition at work, I do sit on my university email account on evenings and weekends).

    Though I know everyone doesn’t have the luxury of doing this because of the expense, I hired bi-monthly housecleaners once I began working.  I realized that if I wanted my time in the evenings with my children to be of the highest-quality (I have mostly-weekday custody of my teenage children), I didn’t want to be spending that time cleaning house–I wanted to be able to focus on them.  I’ll also usually take them out to eat one evening each week–that way we can have some fun and focused dinner conversations with each other, where I’m not bustling around in the kitchen.

    On weekends, I tend to make sure that I have at least one evening set aside for a social event–either a date or a concert or a Happy Hour with friends.  This is both for my own sanity and for trying to maintain my outside-of-work social relationships.

    3) Calendaring

    Our family keeps a GoogleCalendar with the kids’ appointments and our custody arrangements.  I can’t say enough about how important this collaborative calendaring tool is for keeping abreast of all of the family happenings.  My kids, my ex and I all have editing privileges to our mutual family calendar.

    4) Communication

    I’ll confess that I was a late adopter of a cellphone, but now I’m a huge proponent of how much easier it makes communication with my family.  My kids have cellphones with texting plans, so we can communicate easily and efficiently.  We use text messages for keeping each other updated on our whereabouts and for emergency communication.  Email works for longer communication needs or for resolving problems.  I keep my cellphone on my desk at work for monitoring the kids activities, and for just ‘keeping in touch’ with them during the parts of the day that they are out of school and I’m still at work.

    Next, some reflections on my role at Chapman University

    5) Competency

    At first, my biggest struggle was the Imposter Syndrome.  I kept having this feeling that I didn’t really belong in an administrative role, and that my incompetence would soon be revealed.  Like many other women I’ve known who enter the workforce at an older age, I worked extra-hard to prove myself in my position.  That first year, I was often the first person in the building in the morning and many days I left long after the dinner-hour.  Those long hours contributed to the rapid decline of my marriage after I began working (although it was only one of many factors, and it’s also true that my long hours in the office were an escape from an increasingly-toxic home environment).  Now, I tend to keep a regular business-hours schedule and still manage to complete my tasks on time (a skill learned by trial-and-error), except that I do tend to come into the office an hour earlier than most people to ‘miss’ the heaviest traffic and also leave just a few minutes before the 5pm rush hour for the same reason. (As a relevant aside, I’ve made it clear to the people that I date that I’m a bit of a workaholic and find that those I’ve matched well tend to carry a heavy workload, too.)

    6) Learning

    Though I do attempt to be as competent as is possible in my job, I feel that it’s also been important for me to admit when I don’t understand something and to ask for help.  Sometimes it’s just a phonecall to an IT-knowledgable staff member where I ask them to explain how something works.  Sometimes, it’s time spent online teaching myself a principle or a software (and reading through user forums and documentation).  Sometimes it’s telling a faculty member that I don’t yet know the answer to their question, but I will find the answer and respond as quickly as I can.  More than anything, I try to be honest and clear in my communication, and when I realize that the person that I’m talking to might not also understand what I’m saying to them, I rephrase or re-explain until it’s clear that they do.

    7) Colleagues

    Related to my fears about incompetence and my on-the-job learning curve, I leaned extra-hard on my technically-inclined friends (old and new) during my initial few months.  From them I learned project management skills, brushed up on my IT vocabulary, and even shed a few tears on late-night evenings when I was pushing into deadlines and needed help at the command line. Kudos to those of you who asked about my work and who listened patiently as I yammered on about technical details.  New colleagues at Chapman made me feel welcomed and integrated me into happenings on both the academic and the administrative sides of the campus.  I found librarians and junior faculty to be particularly generous to me as a techie-humanist who didn’t have the benefit of an academic-departmental affiliation for my social circle.

    8) Building Bridges

    Moving into this role meant jumping into political forays and administrative divides that existed long before I came to the university.  I soon learned to be cautious about such matters, and to ask around a bit to better understand university policy (or long-standing practice) before making decisions.  Navigating the power structures in an academic environment is dicey business, and it was (and sometimes still is) difficult.  In my role this might be especially apparent because I straddle the lines between the faculty and the IT department (I soon learned that faculty rarely appreciate or understand the work of IT staff, and IT often doesn’t understand the concerns of the faculty, or the peculiar rhythms of the academic calendar).  One of the biggest pleasures of my job are those moments when I can communicate the perspective of the ‘other side’ of the campus, and see that leading to greater understanding rather than greater frustration.

    9) Keeping Things Simple

    The office space that I inherited when hired at Chapman was chock-full.  It had a large u-shaped desk that hugged three sides of the room like the command center of a ship.  There was a large upright filing cabinet and two small ones, as well as one bookshelf full of mostly-outdated technical manuals and bins of electronic equipment.  There were three large wheeled office chairs also cluttering up the space.  For the first few months I was at Chapman, in my free time I sorted through all of the paperwork left in the file drawers and winnowed them down to a handful of file folders.  Then all of the unnecessary furniture and equipment went out and in came wooden bookshelves with my (tagged and organized) academic books.  In short, my office is rather sparse and tidy now.  Everything is within arm’s reach and has a purpose for being here.  I work so much more efficiently in a clean and organized space–a place where I can “think.”  My desk has a both a Mac and a PC computer, as well as an office phone.  There’s a cup of pens/pencils, my coffee-water mug, my cellphone (docked), and a sticky pad.  That’s it.

    Though I still have two small file cabinets in my office, they are largely empty.  One drawer holds my tea and snacks, one has miscellaneous office paraphernalia, and only one actually has files (of which there are just a few dozen sheets of paper–mostly printouts that I take to workshops or HR-related documents).  Whenever I can, I opt to keep documents electronically rather than in hard copy.

    10) Having an Outlet

    I’ve learned that in the midst of the highest stress of my life, that having a physical outlet helps to keep it all in balance.  Sometimes this means just stepping outside of my office for a few minutes and taking a walk around the block.  But most of the time, for me, it means some sort of vigorous heart-pumping exercise.   At home I have a small set of dumbbells and can do a brief routine with those and some pushups if I can’t find the time for the gym.  And even when I travel I either use a hotel gym or do a floor routine of exercises.  But mostly, my outlet is getting out on the ocean in a canoe which I tend to do 2-3 times per week.  When I’m on the water I can’t bring a cellphone, I can’t check my email, and my mind and body get to be in an entirely different place for an hour or two.  I find that there’s little space for work-stress when I’m being pounded by the ocean wind and water, and I when I return from the ocean, my perspective on everything else is improved.

    The other outlet that I need is to always have a book that I’m reading for pleasure at hand.  Nowadays I keep my books on my phone or iPad, and this keeps it terrifically easy to have them always-nearby.  One of my favorite things to do is escape to a favorite local cafe for lunch and ‘hide’ at a table in the back corner and read a few chapters in a novel during my lunch hour.

    Conclusion:

    The major things that I’ve learned from this transition are to streamline and organize daily tasks, to be constantly learning new skills and adapting to new workflows, and to keep my busy-ness in perspective through quality time with my family.  That this still sometimes all “falls apart” when there is a personal crisis or something “falls through the cracks,” seems to be unavoidable.  But for the most part I’m finding that it’s working because of the routines that I’ve established for myself and for my kids.

  • Day of DH

    Day of DH

    Tomorrow I’ll be particpating in the “Day of DH,” an annual event sponsored by CenterNet where Digital Humanists write/blog/tweet about what they do.  Thus, I’ll be tweeting my daily schedule as well as publishing some posts here about my life straddling the digital and the academic, as well as balancing that with various other demands (i.e. mothering, eating, sleeping…).  :)

  • under-where?

    under-where?

    I’ve long been fascinated with the subterranean and love the feeling of descending deep under a city for a subway ride (in fact, when I was younger my all-time favorite amusement park ride simulated an underground mine–that one rocked).  Were it not for my deep-abiding fear of rats, I would probably spend a lot more time underground…

    Which is why, when reading the latest post at BLDBLG about the proposed subterranean infrastructure in Hong Kong, I was delighted to learn that there’s a journal called “Tunnel Business Magazine.”  How cool is that?

  • Twitter Weekly Digest for @janaremy, 2012-03-23

  • growth

    growth

    I think I’m gonna get kinda mushy in this post.  But it’s so pretty outside today, I think I’ve lost my head a bit…

    The longer days and the recent daylight-saving time switch mean that I’m getting home at night while it’s still light outside.  Such a huge difference that makes in how weary I am when I walk in that front door.

    And today, I not only got home early, but I had enough time to water my plants (poor plants don’t get much attention in the wintertime).  There’s a lot of magic happening in my backyard right now, including

    peach buds
    orange blossoms
    rosebuds (so many!)
    heliotrope clusters
    herbs that are “waking up” after getting all leggy and tired in the winter

    But the most exciting discovery today was this, which took me my surprise because I’ve been checking that particular pot everyday and thought that maybe (maybe) nothing would grow:
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    And then I looked a bit closer and found this:
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    And even this (can you see how small it is when the grains of soil around it look like boulders?!:
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    Those three wee plants are the first growths of the tulips that came from the bulbs that came to me in a suitcase all the way from Amsterdam last year. The bulbs “wintered” in my refrigerator drawer for several weeks, then we planted them, and…then, today, sprouts!

    My longtime readers know just how happy it makes me to have growing things all around me.  And of course in springtime those feelings are magnified, even more.  Now I can’t wait to see those teeny stems and leaves turn into something tall and sleek and colorful.  :)

  • Twitter Weekly Digest for @janaremy, 2012-03-16

  • I am not…

    I am not…

    I am not…
    young
    penniless
    or very good at giving directions.

    I am not…
    musical
    middle-aged
    or prone to laughing quietly.

    I am not…
    hungry
    disconnected
    or lost.

    I am…
    resilient.

    PS:  Picture above shows the peach blossoms in my garden, just in time for “(kiss me now) spring.”

  • Some happy links

    Some happy links

    Lately I’ve been doing some electronic spring cleaning, which means clearing a bunch of old draft posts out of my dashboard.  I’m either shaping them up and scheduling for publishing, or dumping them.  Which means, perhaps a bit of randomness in my posting-topics over the next few weeks as I revisit stuff that’s been on my mind for awhile.  In the meantime, some link-worthy stuff below…

    • I’m wishing that I could buy a share of a local bookstore (or start a book co-op myself), after reading this piece.
    • The video below rocks.  The music, dancing and filming are charming/whimsical/stellar.  After I watched it and realized how much I enjoyed, it, I asked myself whether a woman doing the same thing would be as charming (or would it seem gratuitous for her to be undies-dancing)?  I’m still not sure.  So I guess I’ll have to keep watching it over and over again until I have a strong opinion one way or the other…


    Mikhael Paskalev – I spy from André Chocron on Vimeo.

    • If you didn’t see this gem for International Women’s Day, you better watch it:

    • And one more link for all of my fellow-travelers…I’ve been using this site for my train-travel dreaming for over a year now.  And am delighted to use it once again for my big Europe-on-my-birthday-palooza coming up in a few months.

    Note: photo above is of Vasia-kitty doing what he did best (purry-napping).  Looking at photos of him makes me happy

  • Twitter Weekly Digest for @janaremy, 2012-03-09

    • It was on this day in 1988 that I first tasted fresh cilantro. Changed my life forever. #fakeanniversariesworthcelebrating #
    • Doing the double-hull as the sun sets & the moon rises. #lifeofapaddler #outrigger #IMUA #
    • If you were going to lead a faculty workshop called "Alternatives to Blackboard"–what software/tools would you teach? #
    • My summer trip is starting to take shape: current plan includes the Carpathians, a jaunt into Odessa & perhaps the ferry to Istanbul :) #
    • Happiness is…finding bright pink blossoms on our peach tree. :) #
    • Yellowtail v red snapper @ Kitayama http://t.co/1HCGvm4K #
    • The sushi chef at Kitayama is trying to convince me that red snapper is better than yellowtail. What do you think?? #
    • Wine & cheese-ing the evening away @ Wine Galley http://t.co/FSCIDSVG #
    • Having some monogamy tonite :) http://t.co/9Rm5EIbv #
  • the Outrigger Kama Sutra

    the Outrigger Kama Sutra

    I’ve noticed that my friends don’t like to talk much about my “paddling” habit.  I think it’s because you can’t really talk about outrigger canoeing without saying something that sounds more than a little bit dirty (note:  I don’t row or kayak.  I paddle.  There is a difference…).

    Adopting this new sport has meant learning a whole new language for me.  There’re the Hawaiian-isms that we use as part of the heritage of outrigger canoeing, vocabulary that’s specific to the type of stroke that we learn, and phrases that are particular to our team.

    So last night as we were doing double-hull drills in the dark around Lido Island and I was trying to keep warm…I started composing this Outrigger Kama Sutra list in my head.  Being somewhat new to the sport, I’m sure my list is woefully incomplete.  Please help me out by adding your favorite Outrigger Kama Sutra positions in the comments below…

    Out of the hole
    The double-bend paddle
    The short-course
    The long-course
    The iron-man
    Flying the ama
    Taking out your one-man
    Going out on a two-man
    The double-hull
    The triple-hull
    Paddling with the Open Women
    The Steersman
    The Steersman’s Blade
    Getting a rolling start
    The Engine Room
    The Stroker
    The Novice
    Dry seat changes
    Wet seat changes
    Drag drills
    The Coed team
    Surf entry
    Rigging the boat
    The huli
    Riding the swell
    The Triangle
    Keepin’ it Hot

    My previous posts about outrigger canoeing

    bringing it home

  • My Top-10 clothing-packing tips

    My Top-10 clothing-packing tips

    Inspired by this Profhacker post, here are my Top 10 clothing-packing tips.  I believe in keeping things simple, and developed the strategies below so I can minimize the worries that I have before an upcoming trip, and so I can prepare at a moment’s notice.*  For me, that means carrying on one small roll-aboard suitcase with my clothing/toiletries and a shoulder bag with my travel documents and electronics.  For long trips with many transfers, I’ll carry it all in one backpack.

    1) Travel light.  If in doubt, don’t bring it. (I can’t emphasize this enough–one can definitely travel in Europe for two weeks and wear the same clothes everyday)

    2) Related to #1, Carry on.  If you carry on your bags, you’ll be forced to travel light and can make smoother transfers, and can get where you’re going without needing an assistant or a trolley to get you there.  But egads, don’t be that carry-on person with the too-large expandable-zipper suitcase.  If you can’t lift it over your head and into the bin easily, it’s too much.

    3) Make a universal packing list and then customize it for each trip.  I keep my universal packing list in a googledoc (so I can access it from work or phone or home), and then create a new list for a specific trip using the universal list as a template.  Or if my travel is so last-minute that I don’t have time for a custom list, I just use the universal one.

    4) Include an outfit list with your packing list.  I print out this list and put it in the inside mesh-zipper pocket of my roll-aboard, where it’s visible every time I open my bag.  I didn’t use to do that, but I found that if I make a list of each outfit that I’ll need for my trip, I’m less likely to forget something like the shoes or the tights that I need to make an ensemble work.  And I’m also less likely to be packing items that I won’t actually wear and will add unnecessary weight (see #1). Also, I rarely bring more than three outfits on a trip–even one that’ll last two weeks.  By outfit list, I mean something like this:

    Conference day #2: black slacks; brown sweater with black tank layered underneath; black trouser socks; black flats; gold chain necklace and gold hoop earrings; grey raincoat and blue flowered scarf

    As a sidenote:  I’ve you’ve seen me at many conferences you’ve probably realized that I wear the same outfits to most of them.  I like having a “uniform” and making things easy on myself that way–so I can focus on the content of the event and not on fretting about what I’m wearing to and from.  While I also get a lot of pleasure from looking nice when I travel, for me keeping things simple offers that, rather than worrying too much about the details of my clothing choices (and knowing that and being stress-free is more important to me than accessorizing).

    5) Wear black and grey items with colored accessories.  It’s true that I probably wear too much black, but it’s so seductive when one is packing light–it not only doesn’t show roadgrime, but it can go from casual to classy just by changing a necklace or a scarf.  For example, one of my must-packs is a black knit dress like this one.  It can go from beach to opera house** depending on whether I wear tights or a belt or boots or chandelier earrings.  I can layer a long-sleeve tee underneath it for winter, too.  My black travel staples include the dress mentioned above, a tanktop, wash & wear dress-slacks, and a long-sleeve tshirt.

    6) I try to make sure that every item I bring can be both dressed-up and dressed-down, particularly my bulky outerwear because I don’t want to bring along more than one coat or jacket.  For example, for winter I’ve got a hip-length grey wool peacoat that looks good with jeans and a t-shirt, as well as over a cocktail dress.  For fall weather I bring along an artsy-looking black velvet blazer with a bright-colored lining that can be worn with tailored clothes, casual, or dressy.

    7) I wear one pair of shoes and pack another.  Usually I wear something more casual (i.e.  Cons) and pack a pair of black flats.  If it’s winter and I need to bring boots along, then I sacrifice a lot of suitcase real-estate to do so (it’s rarely worth it to me).

    8) For me, going through TSA checkpoints can be a bit of a hassle (i.e. I always get the patdown), so I tend to wear as little clothing as possible for those encounters.  Usually that means a knit dress over leggings or a tank top with slacks or jeans.  That way, there’s no mystery about what I might be “hiding” under my clothes.  Most importantly, I carry the same bags every time I travel so I’m familiar with exactly what they look like and how they feel in my arms. So I can easily tell if I’ve forgotten anything, or left an item behind on the conveyor belt–even when my mind is preoccupied about whether I’ve got time for my flight transfers.  Also, I tend to wear socks when I travel because I don’t like the idea of walking barefoot through the TSA area (oh, and I also like going sock-footed while at my seat on the plane).  But maybe I’m just weird that way.

    9) Have dual-purpose clothing.  I pack pajama pants that I can also wear to the gym, and a spandex tank-top that can be paired with a skirt for a night out, layered under a sweater for warmth, worn for a workout in the hotel fitness center, or also worn for a dip in the ocean/hotel swimming pool/WaldenPond.  I will confess that I’ve done all of those with the same tank-top in the same trip.  It works, and one can always rinse it out in the sink and let it dry overnight if one doesn’t want eau-du-pond lingering for the rest of your travel.

    10) This is only tangentially clothing-related, but is so important to smooth travel, that it warrants being the capstone on this list.  Keep your travel documents in one place, and make that the same place in the same bag every time you travel.  I carry a file folder in my shoulder bag with my travel documents, including itineraries, reservation conformations, train passes, addresses/phone list, and conference schedules.  If I take a document out of that folder, I put it right back in as soon as I’m done.  I also use that same folder to collect receipts for travel reimbursement, or brochures from places that I visited.  If I’m having to jot down some important contact information for my trip on the fly (i.e. my hotel reservation was changed to a different place and I’m copying down an address for a cab driver), I’ll write it directly on the outside of the folder so it’s easy to find.  Then when I get home from the trip I put that folder into my file drawer for future reference.

    And a bonus:
    11) Streamline electronics.  In an ideal world I would bring my Canon 50d and my MacBook and my phone and e-reader along on every trip.  Instead, for freedom and mobility I allow myself one large (read: heavy) electronics item and I forgo the others.  For example, if I’m headed to Europe for pleasure, I’ll bring my nice camera and leave the laptop.  However, if I’m traveling domestically for work, I’ll probably leave both home unless I’m giving a conference talk and I need to present from my laptop (although Prezi for iPad might mean I no longer do that, soon enough).  I tend to bring my iPad (non-3G because I’m cheap like that) and iPhone on every trip now.  On the iPad I load guidebooks and layover-reading materials.  Given its longer battery life, it’s well-worth the weight of that in addition to my iPhone, which works better for mapping and communicating with fellow travelers or family members back home.

    *one day last summer I spent time in three different countries with social obligations in each one that required changes of clothing.  Pulling that off has convinced me that traveling light and simple is the way to go–so I can enjoy the journey more and fret less.
    **or to an on-the-spot cameo appearance in the LDS Conference Center
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