Author: Jana

  • quakin’ (with the Quakers)

    Yesterday during Meeting there was an earthquake.

    It being SoCal, that wasn’t so unusual. But it was my first earthquake with the Friends. We were sitting in our simple circle of chairs, in silence, when the building began to shake. There were a few pops and creaks. Though no one spoke, I could feel a tension in the room, as if each person was fully aware and ready to move if necessary. (note: we meet in an old building in the historic district of downtown Santa Ana. I do not feel very secure about the structural integrity of the building)

    My first thoughts were of the children in the adjacent room. My body was poised to spring out of my seat and go to them if and when the quaking became more intense.

    But it turned out to be just a small quake, not even enough to jostle our chairs. After the windows ceased rattling the peace returned to the Meetingroom. I realized that my breathing had become much more forced, even panicked. I sat back in my chair and calmed myself and returned to meditation.

    At the end of the Meeting, when the silence was broken, a few Friends commented on the quake. One noted, quite simply, that if the shaking had been any worse, we probably should have moved to the side of the room opposite from the windows.

  • halfway today

    Today marks the anniversary of our marriage. It also marks the fact that we’ve been with each other for half of our lives…18 years ago in a muggy SoCal fall, John and I met and started this journey together.

    John woke me up this morning with breakfast in bed: a thick slice of homemade bread (love the breadmaker with a timer so the bread is piping hot when we wake up!) slathered with fresh butter and a latte just the way I like it.

    Joy!

  • in the Light


    blue glory, originally uploaded by pilgrimgirl.

    The first step to peace is to stand still in the Light….
    ~George Fox (1624 – 1691)
    Source: Quaker pamphlet, 1653

  • today…


    geranium, originally uploaded by pilgrimgirl.

    Had the most relaxing day today. Well, HOT and relaxing.

    Went to the Farmer’s Market this morning. Sweated there on my bike and sweated there on the way back (a miracle, really, that my leg didn’t just suh-lide right off as I was pedaling home given the nearly cup-ful of sweat that had collected in my socket). Brought home about 30 lbs of produce for this week’s enjoyment (yum!).

    Then sat on the backporch doing some schoolwork for an hour or two.

    Now sitting on cozy chair in my room in my underwear, having just taken a nap in my skivvies given how freakin’ HOT its been today.

    Okay, TMI perhaps. Getting clothes on now….

  • windows


    my windowsill, originally uploaded by pilgrimgirl.

    One of the very bestest things about my new home: the windowsill above the kitchen sink. I’ve got an assortment of colorful vases in the sill, putting fresh garden flowers in them each day. The window looks out on to my back porch, which is starting to look a bit less cluttered with boxes and dead plants. It is the perfect place to sit in the evening and meditate by candelight.

    Can I just say that I’ve started singing when I wash the dishes? Such joy!

  • last night I had the strangest dream….

    Queue 80’s music…

    I was on a long bike ride. A ride across the country. I remember pedaling and pedaling. Not really feeling tired, but knowing that I needed to conserve my energy because I would be pedaling for days on end.

    My biggest concern, however, was getting to Chicago ASAP. And knowing that once I got there I would have a hard time finding my way around the city on bike.

    The strangest part, perhaps, was that the only person that I met up with on my bike trek was my Dad. I think he was in Chicago, but I’m not sure (that part of the dream is a bit foggy now). He was living in a seedy apartment with faux wood paneling.

    Weird.

  • because life would be happier and more fulfilling…

    An essay that I wrote back in 1983 that I do believe was my first-ever published piece of writing. [For you young’uns: yes, we did have TV way back in the early eighties…]

    What Would Life Be Like Without Television

    Without television we wouldn’t have video games. People would be a lot wealthier because of not spending money on the games. People would also have time for other things.

    People would be healthier if they didn’t sit in front of the TV all the time. Instead, they would get exercise.

    Many people say TV is a learning tool. I agree with them. Except that without TV I’m sure we could fid other ways to learn. Children would also be a lot smarter because they would do their homework more often.

    Also, I have noticed that when people watch TV, they tend to get grouchy and irritable. So, maybe without TV the world would be a happier place to live.

    I Think without TV there would be less crime and killing. In my opinion, TV is where most people get their wrong ideas.

    Without TV people would not be able to see the news. I suppose people would not me able to see many other informational shows, either. So more people would have to get their news and information another way.

    More people would buy tickets to sports events because people wouldn’t be able to see sports on TV.

    I am not saying I am against television, I really enjoy it, but I think life would be happier and more fulfilling without it.

    I find this essay rather prescient. John and I vowed when we were married* not to have a TV in our home. We’ve stuck to that with just a few brief (and unsatisfactory) exceptions. I also find it notable that even way back then I was concerned with violence–my pacifism was already blossoming.

    *UPDATE: The vow wasn’t part of our Mormon secret marriage ceremony. Just FYI…

  • quality


    yellow diantus, originally uploaded by pilgrimgirl.

    A quotation shared by Maddie:

    “We have bigger houses but smaller families,
    more conveniences, but less time.
    We have more degrees, but less sense
    more knowledge, but less judgment
    more experts, but more problems
    more medicines, but less healthiness.
    We’ve been all the way to the moon and back
    but have trouble crossing the street to meet the neighbor.
    We built more computers to hold more information
    to produce more copies than ever…
    but have less communication.
    We have become long on quantity but short on quality.
    These are fast times of fast foods but slow digestion.
    Tall man but short character.
    Steep profits but shallow relationships.
    It is a time where there is much in the window
    but nothing in the room.”
    ~the Dalai Lama

    Our family is thoroughly enjoying our new neighborhood with friendly new neighbors who are totally willing to ‘cross the street’ (or rather cross the grassy path) to meet us and share their homemade goodies. Lucky us and such a refreshing change from our former neighborhood! In addition, I recently made friends with a woman who opened her gorgeous beachhouse to me twice this week for time to rejuvenate, receive a massage, and enjoy crafting scrumptious dark chocolate (if you stop by I will share one of my rich truffle creations with you!). Then tonite, we made some new friends and reconnected with some old ones.

    All joy. I am feeling so very blessed.

    Eating well, living slow, receiving abundance. :)

  • for you


    purple lantana, originally uploaded by pilgrimgirl.

    A prayer for you:

    “Lead me from death to life, from falsehood to truth;
    Lead me from despair to hope, from fear to trust;
    Lead me from hate to love, from war to peace;
    Let peace fill our heart, our world, our universe”
    -Satish Kumar

  • tea for me


    beehive tearoom, originally uploaded by pilgrimgirl.

    A snapshot of my tea service at the Beehive Tearoom. I had a lovely vanilla tea, with a hint of milk and no sugar (I rarely do sugar in tea).

    I thought I’d post this picture in honor of MindOnFire’s new Friday Afternoon Tea feature. Enjoy!

  • fixed


    photoshopped flower, originally uploaded by pilgrimgirl.

    A fellow blogger, Jonathan, photoshopped one of my flower pics and sent it over so I could see what a bit of digital massage could do to brighten up my pics.

    I love what he did with this picture (compare it to the original).

    For me right now, however, I’m eschewing photoshop for my daily flowers. Why? Among the reasons: I don’t have a lot of time for ‘photoshopping’, I like the challenge of taking pics ‘just as they are’ (I don’t even crop them), and I’m sharing with you just what I saw (although I will admit that the colors are a bit less vibrant then they are in ‘real life.’)

    When I was in SLC I met many people who enjoy my photos. Several asked me about my camera, lenses, etc. When I pulled out my teeny little Canon, more than one laughed a bit. Because it’s “not a real camera.” I even borrowed a ‘real camera’ from a friend for a few minutes to try my hand at some ‘real photography’ (thinking that someone beautiful would result). And it was so hard to use–too many bells and whistles and just too heavy to do what I do with mine.

    I guess I’m trying to justify the fact that I am lowtech and lowbrow when it comes to photography. Or maybe I just like the instant gratification that comes from using a simple tool (my Canon) in my own simple way. I will probably never be a pro photographer. And I have little aspiration to become such. Because as soon as I become too preoccupied with my ‘technique,’ I lose the intimacy of my garden experience.

    So for now it’s just me and my little Canon. Doing what we enjoy most as we spend time in our garden. :)

    Hey, but ya’ll are always welcome to improve upon my humble efforts!