SIP Day 42, wearing light blue sleeveless top and black linen joggers, writing from my home office; 77 degrees outside today
Of late I’ve been feeling fairly neutral about being stuck at home. I have an easy rhythm to my days and I’m not nearly as angry or scared as I was that first week or two.
Until today. For some reason I feel really sad, and I am actively having to hold back tears so I can continue on with my all-day Zoom-meeting schedule. I don’t really know why I’m sad, I just am.
I want to escape the sad and a glass of wine and a bowl of ice cream both occur to me as ways I might escape, but at the same time I don’t want to escape at all. I just want to cry.
I don’t know if this is corona-related sadness or just the result of too much time spent typing at a keyboard and some attendant stress from some of my work situation. And of course I know it’s okay to be sad and to cry and I can do that if I want to. I just wonder, why today?
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I don’t know why any given day is sad. I think it is just the accumulation of lots of small things that I miss, or small disappointments just finally pile up. Or the realization that this will last far longer than I realized when it first started. Back in March 16th when I was told I would be telecommuting, I actually thought maybe I can just leave my spider plant at work, it won’t need water for at least two weeks, and I’ll be back. Fortunately, I did bring it home, because it has been a lot longer than two weeks.
I agree, and I am also glad that I took my plants home…