SIP Day 42, wearing light blue sleeveless top and black linen joggers, writing from my home office; 77 degrees outside today
Of late I’ve been feeling fairly neutral about being stuck at home. I have an easy rhythm to my days and I’m not nearly as angry or scared as I was that first week or two.
Until today. For some reason I feel really sad, and I am actively having to hold back tears so I can continue on with my all-day Zoom-meeting schedule. I don’t really know why I’m sad, I just am.
I want to escape the sad and a glass of wine and a bowl of ice cream both occur to me as ways I might escape, but at the same time I don’t want to escape at all. I just want to cry.
I don’t know if this is corona-related sadness or just the result of too much time spent typing at a keyboard and some attendant stress from some of my work situation. And of course I know it’s okay to be sad and to cry and I can do that if I want to. I just wonder, why today?